Tonight I was joking with SingleChildhoodfriend about my unhealthy affection for GI GUY.
I mentioned to her that it’s like I’m addicted to him and I quoted the line “It’s like your drug…” and she knew exactly what I was referring to song-wise. I haven’t been talking to him for as long as I can and feel like I’m in withdrawal (and I’m trying my best but it’s hard to shake your feelings).
It’s been more than 48 hours since we communicated on Monday night over email. Now, don’t be too proud of me or start clapping or cheering for me like I’m some strong girl – for making it through 2 full days – because I feel like I’m ready to text him any minute. I’m trying not to but you never know with my weak self.
So, why is it that some relationships can be directly correlated to a drug addiction, I ask myself?
I decided to read the lyrics to Kelly Clarkson’s song (which I featured below) because I felt it perfectly describes the unhealthy infatuation of being addicted to someone else.
Using some of Kelly’s correlations this is what I came up with…
In these crazy addictive relationship the guy is like the demon sucking the life from you, you’re trying to run from him all the time (but you end up running right back to him). He has all the power and he’s like a leech that sucks the life out of you.
You have to quit him to be better but you realize how hard it is to do so and it will take so much time and will power to fight the craving.
You can’t even think without him interrupting you thoughts, you can’t concentrate because he is on your mind, and your sleep and dreams are interrupted by him. Your mind has totally been taken over.
It’s like your not yourself. You have become someone else. You’re just not the “you” you’ve always known.
You’re lost, you’ve given up and he’s like a ghost that will haunt you and won’t leave you alone. The voices in your head are all your own telling you he’s wrong for you and then you fight with yourself internally. You tell yourself to quit him but you can’t because you can’t breathe, you can’t eat, you can’t see anything, you’re addicted.
As hard as you try…your hooked on him and you fell like you need a fix of him because you just can’t take it. You figure just one more time and you’ll quit, you can do it. You can handle one more hit and then that’s it because then you can get through this.
It’s like he’s taken over you…and it’s like you’re not you….
Crazy right? I think it is. I never thought about relationships this way before. I’m sitting here smacking myself in the head (not literally) saying that I can’t believe I never realized the correlation.
It’s like like or love blinds everything and you can’t see the truth. OR maybe you don’t want to see the truth until you’re really ready….and that is what addiction is like….
Kelly Clarkson – Addicted
It’s like you’re a drug
It’s like you’re a demon I can’t face down
It’s like I’m stuck
It’s like I’m running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It’s like the only company I seek is misery all around
It’s like you’re a leech
Sucking the life from me
It’s like I can’t breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I’m never gonna quit you over time
It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m lost
It’s like I’m giving up slowly
It’s like you’re a ghost that’s haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I’ll never change my ways
If I don’t give you up now
It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me
I’m hooked on you
I need a fix
I can’t take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I’ll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that’s it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I’m hooked on you
I need a fix
I can’t take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I’ll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that’s it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me
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July 24, 2008 at 3:59 pm
oscarstavern
Start drinking…… LOL No I understand. and just like a junkie, it takes time to ween off. Find your morphene…
July 24, 2008 at 4:10 pm
AlwaysKnewWe’dBeFriends
Don’t do it…you know if you do…he’ll do something to remind you that you really shouldn’t have and you’ll be kicking yourself over it! Just let him want and need you some or even better-move forward! Go out with the girls…have some fun…meet some other guys and see where it takes you. I think once somebody else enters the picture you will be instantly over GI dude.
And…it’s all about having a good time, but not compromising yourself to do it. You have a great cast of friends to hang with. I know you probably don’t feel up to “going out” but it may help. Even trips to the park or grocery store can be a good spots for meeting people. Just put yourself out there some. Don’t stay cooped up inside and let GI dude linger in your head. Go LIVE this beautiful life you have and forget the drug you’ve been seeking. It’s only going to suck the life out of you. The choices and power are always your own. Chose cautiously my friend.
July 24, 2008 at 6:47 pm
meleah rebeccah
It’s like like or love blinds everything and you can’t see the truth. OR maybe you don’t want to see the truth until you’re really ready….and that is what addiction is like….
Yep. 100% correct. GI Guy is your high and you get all worked up when you dont get a big enough fix.
xxoo
January 5, 2009 at 8:27 pm
getting free from him
it’s a drug produced by your brain…oxytoxin. in some instances with me all I have to do is hear his voice and a mad dose of this is rushed through out my brain and I feel a release…..