I Need the Rest

Song lyrics really get to me sometimes.  Does that ever happen to you? Sometimes it’s the whole song that goes so perfectly with your life or sometimes it’s just a verse or a refrain that hits you.

I was listening to Anna Nalick’s Song “Drink Me” and I chuckled when she said “lately I’m obsessed and I need the rest.”  I won’t be personally drinking anything to make myself fade away until I disappear and no remembers me.  I’m just making the point that sometimes I really find myself identifying with a song and then I play it over and over and over until I can’t stand it anymore.

The the issue becomes that I can’t even listen to the song anymore because all it does is remind me of that time in my life and then it’s almost painful to listen to it.  I have a lot of songs like that…there are ones that give me happy thoughts but lately there are a lot more of them that make me upset when I hear them.  It’s been a long 10 months!

I took all of your advice.  I’m trying to give “space” to GI GUY.   It’s 3:30am and I made it through the day without texting, IM’ing or emailing him.  As SingleChildhoodFriend said when I told her “one day at a time” (sage advice).  Maybe I will get through so many days that I won’t even need him anymore (hmmmm…not sure about that one but you never know…miracles happen).

I still don’t know what the story is with the few weeks on the base without the phone or internet.  Maybe they take them to a remote part of the base for intense training and don’t let them go back to their normal rooms…no friggin clue.  I’m sure he will tell me before he goes “radio silent” (or will he? uugh!! Whatever!)

Anna Nalick – Drink Me

Talk about the weather
Will you miss me ever?
Lately I’m obsessed
And I need the rest
I hope that you’re impressed
But she’s so pretty, I’m jealous
And she’s lost like Alice
In a painted past
In a looking glass
I see me looking back

I’ll take another Drink Me, baby
Slowly, I’ll disappear
And wear my life like a barbed wire necklace
So let’s play truth or dare

So you’re a fan of Coltrane
I wanna be Kurt Cobain
When the truth gets scary
I’ll take my gin and sherry
And some Drink Me they’ll be
Plath and Joplin with verse writing suiciders
Kennedy and Monroe come to see my rock show
I’ll be there in the front row

I’ll take another Drink Me, baby
Slowly, I’ll disappear
And wear my life like a barbed wire necklace
So let’s play truth or dare

And I won’t be around to play your games
There will come a day when you won’t know my name
And I’ll get smaller with
Every swallow you’ll
Wait tomorrow and things won’t be the same

Talk about the weather
Will you miss me ever?
Lately I’m obsessed
And I need the rest
I hope that you’re impressed
Cuz I need the rest
And my head’s a mess
I need the rest
I need the rest
I need the rest